Important: 12

Now, David had, however, after a week more than usual disgusting intercourse with Nilenius, during which time he became hysterical outbursts and alternately cursed, blasphemed God and the people and cried, determined to get rid of him. He rented the house, he thought – he had already begun to write in his book, and even managed to sell a few stories to a couple of smaller metropolitan newspapers – and was now a mil from the district. If Nilenius came, he would simply refuse to go with him more. It was already a show in the village: David Ramm has been companion to Nilenius. Now he arranged his books which he bought in America, nailed together a desk of old boxes, spread newspapers to canvas over it, and started working. 47 But his uncertain status and loneliness tormented him, again and kneaded his memory of the past. Sometimes when he sat down to write, he was seized by doubts about whether this was his true field. Was he perhaps just a conceited fool, a topic for an intruder to others’ areas? But the old philosophical brooding, come on, supported by the recent talks with Hartman. He longed for him, after some instruction in thinking systematically and sensibly about what he sought to escape but perennial accidentally stuck in, the aimless brooding about the soul, the immortal, sin, punishment and the great evil, and the divine proportion to the pain – one thing that Hartman had taught him to stare